Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex
March 10^th 2009
I talked to Tracy at Lenderman’s tonight and asked her advice on my right knee muscles; she understood right away it was muscle atrophy. She suggested some strengthen exercises to do and for that I thank her.

I admire her dedication and what seems like her joy at teaching the Lean & Fit class. I think she lives there. I wonder if she has a life outside of work and Lendermans like a family.

I took Sydney to counseling with me today. The counselor thinks she should see her very own counselor to talk about things like abandonment by her dad and anger issues. I’m letting her make the choice. She’s a smart kid. Martial arts would probably be good for her and Kyle (Joining Jessica) if we could afford it.

Tomorrow Sydney sees a specialist for her arm. I hope I can find the office.

Time for bed. I’m going to read a little. G’night.

Remaking Myself Each Day
March 9^th 2009

Hello again. I’m back to the lesbian question again. I can’t help it. I’ve been doing some thinking, trying to raise my standards and find the right person for me. Ideally I should meet a woman, yes a woman – I’m going lesbian here, and slowly get to know each other. We should be mutually attracted to each other, but not enter into a romantic relationship until we’ve become best of friends. Only then do we start to romance each other. No more of this pursuing or thinking I’ve fallen over night. I’m going to take things slowly if I have any brains about it. Don’t think I can do it? I guess you’ll have to stay tuned because there isn’t anyone in my life presently… but one day, maybe.

I’ve been watching Gordon Ramsey’s The F Word today. It’s pretty entertaining.

My mom retires on 3/31/09. She has surgery on April 2^nd I think it is. She’s having back surgery.

On the exercise front I’ve had my thyroid medication increased. I’m taking this green tea pill my mom bought me to increase my metabolism because she won’t quit bugging me unless I take them. I’ve been walking to the highway and back every couple of days. My back hurts so bad I can only do it that often just yet. I’m doing strengthen exercises for my legs, back and arms whether I walk or not. I’m waiting for it to help. Currently I weigh more than I’ve ever weighed in my life so I’m deadly serious to get fit.

I’m about to start using the Lenderman’s Lean & Fit dvd’s to help the getting in shape along. I’ve watched some of it already and I notice I have to be able to have rhythm, which I don’t have in any way. We shall see.