My eldest daughter Jessica and I went out looking for some kind of wrist/thumb brace so she could continue in martial arts at least for the most part. We had fun. I had to help her bind her hands... yes, both of them. But not together. Though that would be pretty funny. The right one hurts worse. When we got home we practiced seeing what she could do with some of her martial arts gear.
Kyle and I went for a walk and we're going for another one. Like less than .5 miles. It's all hurty. You know, it all hurts. I go as far as I can and then limp home and ice. Well Jess wants her laptop back so I'd better go.
Ciao
A commercial was just on where a man said, "I take full responsibility for my actions."
Wow,apply that same thing to parenting, "I take full responsibility for my parenting."
Rough huh? I think it's true though. Parents tend to ignore their kids then wonder what's wrong with them. They're probably spending less time eating their meals or drinking their coffee than they spend on an average day with their children.
I spend a heavy price to spend the entire day with my kids. And by the way they are awesome kids of course. I'm on disability and don't work outside the home. I consider our little family of myself and my three kids very lucky in that way. It's my job to grow them into the best people that I possibly can. And even if I worked full-time it would be true... I had those kids, It's my responsibility to grow them up into the best people they can be.
Yesterday Sydney and I went to see my grandma Mary. For the first 15 minutes she kept telling me I look like someone she knows. She snapped back into reality and remembered who we were. I think parents should take responsibility for the babies they make. Remember they are our CEO's and murders of the future.
These last two days have been bipolar hell for me. I just want to be alone so I can keep my it,,my sanity myself and not affect my 3 kids. I'm single. No adult to defer to. I've been having to take two chill pills three or four times a day. That's double my official dosage. But you assess your risks and you do what you have to do. We lowered my 1200 mg dosage of Lithium to 900mg. That was a bad move. We've moved it up another 150mg. Not much difference.
See, I'm having muscle twitches and jumps and so on. Every muscle is in play plus my freaking tongue...when I'm talking. My tongue jerks with my jaw and it's like being hit by a base ball hat when it's really bad. I don't think the lithium has anything to do with my twitches.
I'm seeing a neurologist at the UW Medical Center in like a month. We figure if the ticks go away I can just cancel the appointment. If not, I'll still go to the clinic. Got my bases covered.
God I love my kids.
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I got what I thought was a guide to the candidates but was actually for issues like funding firefighter and other civil servants.... but not on whose running for governor or lieutenant governor or secretary of state or partisan and non-partisan (whatever the hell that means). More, state auditor, commissioner of public lands, attorney general, SUPERINTENDENT OF PUBLIC INSTRUCTION. (Gawd get Terry Bergeson out for heaven sake.) Our State educational system sucks. I've pulled mine out to do the K-12/WAVA program so I can make certain my kids get the best education they can get."
So now I have to go on the net to figure out what to do. I mean honestly, they are some 66 candidates. I'm going to research the people running for governor. The rest... I'm writing myself in. Maybe before the next elections someone will provide us with booklets on all the candidates and not let us just watch stupid TV ads. So there!
First let me say I'm sick and tired of this and I refuse to give in to the pain.
I broke the cartilage in my left ankle clear through almost two years ago. I had my last stitches and gave up my crutches 2 weeks ago. Being brave (or stupid) I went out walking... the pain became almost as bad as it was before. So I call the doc. He said it was to be expected. A woman in his office had similar ankle surgery too and it took 4-5 MONTHS for the pain to reduce. That is so not ok with me. I've sat on my ass long enough. I'm going to amp up my vitamins, take my other meds, get enough sleep, ice, heat, and so on. Oh gentle stretching and strengthening
4-5 MORE months ..... mercy
I don't know if you know what being bipolar is like, but let me assure you it's no fun. I read that people kind of like it because it can make them able to clean the house in a whiz. Ok, that's true for some. They probably have other symptoms. I've had to take four chill pills today. Thankfully I'm also in pain in my ankle so I took two pain pills too. Unfortunately it is now 3:33 a.m. Tuesday and I can't sleep. The tragedy of the whole thing is that Jess is at the ocean, Sydney is at Maia's house and that meant if I got Kyle to spend the night at someone's house I'd have just the space of an even and night and morning all to myself. So far no disasters other than I keep banging my knee on furniture.
I went for about 1/3 of a mile walking with the kids. (the littler ones)I've iced my ankle twice and taken Advil and painkillers. Didn't help... not falling asleep. Sometimes after I blog I can go to sleep.... getting my brain to be still so I can sleep.
My dad made what he called "1950's super juice hamburgers". She's spending night so she'll be there first thing in the morning to watch their spoiled small Jack Russell Terrier. She's sweet, when she's not boring. They always have a sitter for the dog. I swear they treat that dog more special than they do their only grand kids. Tony is totally gay. He and dumb shit Matt have no intention of getting a kid so it was just up to me to continue the line as it were.
Oh yeah, I highlighted the websites and for Go Daddy all my login info. We have a book of "Secrets" that we record all our pass words and user names and such.
Tomorrow my cousins will be in town I'm going to try to hook up with them since I'm going to take my laptop at the Geek Squad in town. I hope I can spend some with Derek. I want him to understand why my moods change. I want to keep in touch with him. Kathy will be here from Alaska too but she always have some kind of reason why she can't give me a few minutes of a minute to shoot me the occasional email.
I'm going to try to sleep now. I'm sleeping in just my underpants. lol The kids are gone. Which... yes, I took my brain drugs on time.
Ciao
I talked to my pill doctor about my sever ticking and twitching. She assured me it's my meds and adjusted them a little again.
I was supposed to have 4 days alone while the kids were at their dad's but Jessica refused to go. She says they have nothing in common and makes her do things she doesn't want to do. Now Jess is gone with some friends to the ocean coming home on Wed. I'm going try to ship Kyle off since Syd will be overnight at my parents. Then I can have a day alone. Yep, it looks like it will work out. I'll have nearly 24 hours alone!
My house is a mess.
I have to leave to pick up the kids in a few minutes.
I found myself thinking today that I'm rather happy being a single mom. Sure, more money that might come with a partner might be a relief, but I love having my kids to myself. And we talk about everything. Kyle is the one I need to spend more time with. Six years ago when I started my original blog I was writing it to find a partner. It quickly evolved from there to a multi-layered flower full of our lives and our life.
I'm highly motivated to rehabilitate my ankle and lose weight because of all the time I spend watching Jessica learning mixed martial arts at Lendermans. I thought I might make some friends there but I haven't, not really. Although they noticed last week when I had a tennis shoe on and no crutches. That was a major victory, no crutches.
I've slept a lot in the last two days while only Jessica and have been home. We watched the opening of the Olympics. All I can say is "WOW!"
We had dinner at my parents tonight. My dad cooked the fish they caught. I think it didn't agree with me. I have a head ache and upset stomach now. I've tried to sleep and am sleepy, but nope. Jess couldn't sleep either so we played Master Mind. It's a cool game. My brain isn't functioning so well tonight so she beat me by one point.
Time to try to sleep again.
Go USA!
Now that all my screws and stitches are out and gone I'm working like mad to get exercise routine going. I can't walk far yet and according to my at because I walk funny. It's true. I tip over easily.
I'm doing weights on my arms and have started walking just a little. I'm stretching the foot and connecting stuff often. I'm also trying to desensitize the area on and between the stitches. It's so sensitive. It hurts but it has to be done.
There are a lot of books and articles about mental health. I'm going to go beyond what I normally write and write the pure, simple, embarrassing, humiliated, historical of my own personal journey of madness and searching for normalicy. I hope that it will some readers.
Until next time
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Sometimes I have time to listen to talk radio. Sometimes I'm interested in what the host is yammering about. Today was good. Dori Monson went after Washington state for wanting to pay $350,000 to make a huge metal bucket for these horses to run out of.... Be aware that the current Governor has led us into a several BILLION dollars in debt.
Visit Dori's website for more information.
I don't think that public monies should pay for "public" art. Art should be paid for by those who patron the arts and who can afford $350,000. Let's say we use that money for something else. Let's use it to help the people who live in the Tent City that has now moved to Mercer Island (I think that's where they are, yep).
Hiya! Just out blog hopping. Hope you're having a great week so far! Nice journal, I love the colours and layout! 
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