April16^th 2009
I’m Shit at Breaking Up
It’s official, I’m shit at breaking up. I’m not whining about it, just feeling a little sad and angry. Joan went so far as to stop being friends on Facebook to anyone we had in common. They friended me, I didn’t friend them… at least I think so. I offered to leave Facebook because she was there before me. Dunno. How can you break up the right way? R and I talked for a while, now I’m unhealthy for her she says. Now Joan says basically the same thing. And then there’s Kathy, she sued me. Oh and Yehn, Joan, won’t even answer emails.

Sigh… It isn’t that I’m not moving on, because I don’t want a dating relationship with any of these people, it’s that they still feel so negative towards me and I don’t like it. If they want to harbor ill will then have at it. I thought I had made better choices in my relationships, the  people.

What the hell. Sydney hugged me when I got back from getting cortizone shots in both knees, she said, “Mom, you need a girlfriend.” She’s so silly. I’m not sure what made her make that statement. She was very certain of herself though.

So now with the Facebook wars I’m frustrated. I just want to get to know some people and chat. You know, like speed penpals. Is that so bad?

Am I really such a bad, horrible woman? No, I don’t think so. Neither do my kids or my counselor.

I got a really nice comment on one of my stories on FanFiction.net today. That was sweet. I need to finish that. Maybe I’ll work on it some tonight. We’re going to Lendermans tomorrow instead of today so I can rest my knees. I’ve had a pain pill for my neck and now I’m loopy.

Jessica says Lincoln (our very very old cat) has been falling over today. She thinks he wants attention. Right now he’s sitting on my bed with me. I have a huge bed so we both have lots of space.

I think I’ll spend the remainder of the day writing and drawing… or I may fall asleep. We shall see.

At least kids and pets forgive us. What’s wrong with adults?

you know what it is not you so don't own it okay you are a great person and if people harbour ill will or anger then that is also thier thing not yours wish these people peace and forgive yourself for you.